Work, Work, Work: or, Real Life Cultist Simulator

(Author’s Note: I no longer have this job, but I am about to start another one soon… So I figured it was time to post this.) Recently I obtained a full time job. Through totally mundane means it fell into my lap, and due to my job duties I have had a lot of time to mull on different topics. I find myself missing the void and space and free

A Intuitive Guide to the Outer Gnosis – v0.2

Author’s Note: This volume serves as both a basic introduction to key concepts behind the Gnosis, and a personal volume concerning my explorations with intuitively exploring the Gnosis myself. Modifications I will make to this article in the near future include adding an additional section about the personal power of practitioners. Edit made 08/03/22: I added a section titled “The Touch of a God” and I corrected the document for

Y’Golonac, Nyarlathotep, and Sin

Note: This was originally published over 3 years ago. I may update this in due time, as I am interested in speaking with lesser known deities of the pantheon, and I have a much greater personal understanding of the nature of Nyarlathotep. Y’Golonac is a brute, largely referring to physical appearance. If he manifests physically it is always as a large headless humanoid figure with mouths on his hands— interesting

On The Nature of Gods: A Study of SCP 3812

In my quest to perceive the nature of godhood, the void, and eldritchian beings, in addition to the main and extended Cthulhu Mythos texts, I and many others have also relied on pop culture and art as their Call, for research purposes, and to achieve magical means of interacting with the pantheon. As my eldritch “strain” is more mental based, and I myself have an interest in discovering what makes

Where Have I Been? 2022 Update

A small update for anyone who reads this blog. I have continued to perform my research and I have made a number of strides in my work and spiritual practice when compared to the day I began this website. I have communed with the gods, given them offerings, and looked into a number of sources relating to their origin and power. Essays that I have written in private are waiting,

Preliminary Probable Construction of The Shining Trapezohedron

This is a follow up post to Nyarlathotep and TST’s Energetic Patterns. In the past I have created several copies of The Shining Trapezohedron and things relating to him. Construction methods, the amount and kind of concentration utilized, and the energy put into these forms varies. Below is a summary of my results. The constructs I made are linked at the very end of this post for examination purposes. Eldritch

Nyarlathotep and TST’s Energetic Patterns

(This post is theory, though it is grounded in both observations from others, and those that have been made about primary source material.) From others’ writings we have established that Nyarlathotep has some interesting effects on emotions, using his mental and energetic capabilities. Ny is very capable of manipulating others psychologically, and this carries over into his energetic makeup— as mentally based energy. We can witness the emotional effects of

Sundered- The Beginning

The game Sundered opens with the main character, Eshe, stumbling through a desert sandstorm. As she approaches a strange crystal structure, the ground releases tendrils that wrap around her and suck her in. The beginning of the game acquaints you with basic movements, then after that you drop into a section of underground, a main home base of sorts, known as Zaekthaesz (Sanctuary). A set of red candles glow in

Sundered and the Eschaton Prayer

“We shall deliver you from slumber. Bless us with a new form, and cleanse us all. Aelleah”
— Eschaton Prayer This is the Eschaton prayer. If we assume the Eschaton function like a polytheistic religion, albeit a cult, we can likely safely assume they have other prayers as well. This particular prayer has some in-game significance:
 What the Eschaton priests were doing already was releasing their gods (from other dimensions most

Self Hypnosis: A Brief Guide

The self hypnosis state is one of deep relaxation, not necessarily a trance state. In order to get into this state of relaxation, we typically will take these steps in order: 1) Induction 2) Deepening 3) Affirmations/Suggestions 4) Exiting A note on affirmations: It is of crucial importance to avoid the use of negative affirmations during self hypnosis, as the subconscious cannot process negatives and your affirmation will be reversed